The older I got, the harder it became for me to freely share about my experiences and accomplishments. But why?!
In 2003, I was a very shy kid who felt like I lacked a voice so I started this website to write what I couldn’t speak. I quickly realized that an online journal was the perfect outlet because no one was able to silence me or limit my creativity, but I quickly took it to the extreme. Whenever I experienced something that made me uncomfortable in-person, I kept everything bottled-up until I could unleash a barrage of attacks at everyone involved in that situation in my next blog entry. But then I had a lightbulb moment!
Using Geremology.com as an outlet to spew hate at unsuspecting people only harnessed deep-rooted negativity within me. I realized that life would be better if I used the site as a positive tool to help myself and others rather than something that tears people down. If you check the archives, you’ll notice that the first published entry is in 2004, which was one year after I started the site. This is because I deleted all of the negative journal entries from between 2003 and 2004 and overhauled both the blog and my mindset. From September 2004 until now, I’ve written about the notable highlights in my life, like when I bought my first house, when I bought my dream car, when I took a flight every week for a month, when I set up my first office, when I started Peculiar PPL, when I was one of the first people to buy a Tesla, when I quit my full-time job to work for myself, and when I chartered private jets and helicopters for random adventures. But then things changed in 2019.
I’ve written a total of fifteen posts in the last three years because I lost my “voice” again. Whenever something exciting happened in my life I convinced myself that it would appear as bragging to write about it. Maybe it’s due to the new norm of people being shunned for saying the wrong things, or maybe I’m just being foolishly humble. I’ve felt like I’ve been on a self-imposed mute and haven’t been able to share the interesting things that has happened in my life. But recently I’ve had another lightbulb moment where I realized that your accomplishments can be others’ inspiration and sharing your successes can help others along their journey.
So in the coming weeks, I hope to return to my old practices of sharing more about my life’s happenings. A lot has happened since 2018 and God has been great to me so I’ve got many things to share. Feel free to stop-by every now and then to see a more transparent version of me. Hopefully.
Here’s to a new chapter of Geremology.